睡前。。。

原来。。。
这样会很痛。。。
痛得不知道要做什么。
真得好痛！
不懂为什么会那样。。。
真的不懂还是不敢去想？
我。。。无法回答。。。
其实想想也没什么，
但就是感觉到痛！
痛得说不出口。。。
算了，
还是去睡好了。
不想了。。。
晚安~~

30.11.2009
2.20am

nice ones^^

The furthest distance in the world
世界上最遥远的距离
Is not between life and death
不是生与死
But when I stand in front of you
而是 我就站在你面前
Yet you don't know that I love you
你却不知道我爱你

The furthest distance in the world
世界上最遥远的距离
Is not when I stand in front of you
不是 我就站在你面前
Yet you can't see my love
你却不知道我爱你
But when undoubtedly knowing the love from both
而是 明明知道彼此相爱
Yet cannot be together
却不能在一起

The furthest distance in the world
世界上最遥远的距离
Is not being apart while being in love
不是 明明知道彼此相爱 却不能在一起
But when painly cannot resist the yearning
而是 明明无法抵挡这股思念
Yet pretending you have never been in my heart
却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里

The furthest distance in the world
世界上最遥远的距离
Is not when painly cannot resist the yearning
不是 明明无法抵挡这股思念
yet pretending you have never been in my heart
却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里
but using one's indifferent heart
而是 用自己冷漠的心对爱你的人
To dig an uncrossable river
掘了一条无法跨越的沟渠
For the one who loves you

P/S: somethings that I found at Duwenzhang.net ... very nice & just want to share it here...

UNTITLED 3~~

CHEER UP PLEASE!
WAKE UP PLEASE!
TRY TO FORGET ABOUT THE SAD THINGS PLEASE!
I WANT TO THROW IT OUT OF MY BRAIN!
I WANT TO KEEP A DISTANCE FROM THOSE FEELING!
I HATE IT!
DON'T LIKE IT!
IT'S MAKE ME CRAZY AND LOST CONTROL!
I KNOW HOW TO CONTROL MY TEMPER...
BUT SEEMS LIKE I DON'T KNOW HOW TO CONTROL MY MOOD!
CAN ANYBODY TEACH ME THE WAYS TO CONTROL MY MOOD?
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!
THAT'S ONLY ONE WORD TO DESCRIBE ME!
"STUPID"
HOW STUPID I'M?
ALWAYS REPEATED THE SAME MISTAKES...
I'M SO USELESS!
AND EVEN MORE STUPID IS I NEVER REGRET!
NEVER & EVER!
@.@

P/S:kindly ignore this post if don't understand ya!!! just want to release my tension...
It's time to sleep... without dreams~~~

27.11.2009
1.30am

时间。。。

时间，
一旦溜走了就无法回头。
时间，
让人错过了就无法挽回。
时间，
总是成为玩弄我们的工具。。。
它，
让我们懊悔所发生的一切。
它，
让我们内疚自己所做过的一切却不给我们补偿的机会。
我们无法掌控时间，但却无时无刻的被它掌控着。。。
我们无法摆脱它。
相反的，
我们无时无刻都要迎接它的到来。
它为我们带来欢乐；惊喜；痛苦；遗憾；伤心，
所有的喜怒哀乐。
有时很想把时间倒流，
改变一下我想改变的事情。
但仔细的想一想，
如果真的能把时间倒回，
我又能改变什么？
即使倒回，
也只不过把发生的一切在重复一遍。
这，
不也只是再折磨自己吧！。。
我的时间，
让我在我的人生中留了无数的遗憾和内疚。
开心的事情却少得差点记不起来。。。
我的时间，
似乎每天都在给我不一样的考验，
要我学会怎样去处理那些事情。
而我，
却越来越不懂得如何去解决那些烦人的事情。
唯一的解决方式是：
“让时间来帮忙我决定一切吧！”

p/s：时间，我的所有问题就靠你了~~~

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Actually I should be feel a little bit relax now... or a little bit happy... But, I cant even smile after I back from college. I'm still ok while there, just suddenly like that when I on the way go home with paper. I don't think she can feel it because I didn't say anything besides answering her questions. I just want to get back my mood so what I did was volume up the k-pop while listening and discussing with her about the finals.

So sad when think about all the papers that had been tested. I can say you can just shot me down by just a single subj. I really thought that I can relax after the 5th paper which is MIS. But now...... and the worse part is my confidence in my last paper had gone after continues shot by 4 subj in 2days time. I worry how if I also can't do well in my stat. mtd? How if the questions are those I don't know how to do? Sigh...... Can I concentrate in doing the revision of stat.mtd? Can I just get my mind away from the previous papers? I wondering...

I don't really want to write something about my finals for these 4 subj. Don't even want to think about it. So disappointed to myself... So angry to myself... I don't want to suffer anymore but can I? Sigh......

Today or I should say recently I found that myself got such a negative attitude!!! How can? Why I always did the same mistake? I found that myself like to shut people down nowadays. I don't mean that... and so sorry to the 'victims' in this case. I hate this kind of attitude but I'm the one who did that!!! I wanna change! change! change! Don't want to be like this! Hate!!!

Sometimes, I like to play with some friends without think twice... The word play here means 'kacau-ing' in malay. Err... I don't know why. Just wondering why sometimes after I kacau them, I feel quite bad and keep on think about the things that I did just now isn't too over or isn't too bad?! ARGH!!! I should not do all these stupid things! This is not me!!! Sorry if what I did had cause you angry or what... SORRY~~~

I really need a rest after my last paper which is on Monday... I couldn't stand it anymore... There are something wrong inside my body system... I can easily feel it or I should say it already happen. I just hope that everything gonna be fine after this. Please back to normal, I don't want any 'error' happen in my body system. If next time still like this and cant back to normal, I think it's time for me to go search for Dr...

That all for today... Just want to clear up my mind about the sad sad things......
Blogs still unable to cheer me up... What should I do????????????!

我想做的。。。

啊！
啊啊！！
啊啊啊！！！
啊啊啊啊！！！！
啊啊啊啊啊！！！！！
啊啊啊啊啊啊！！！！！！
啊啊啊啊啊啊啊！！！！！！！
啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊！！！！！！！！

我要大声地喊出来！
我要发泄！
我要丢掉所有的包袱和烦恼！

*不好意思，因为没地方发泄只好用这种方法。。。不懂的尽可以忽略这一贴。。。*
加油！！！是时候啃书了。。。

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Today, I had started my 1st paper for this semester which is bcomm2... Well, a little bit shocked when I 1st open up the question paper and saw the questions. The questions totally different with the previous semester or I should say it's just 5% similar to the previous one . Anyhow, I had tried my best in finish all the question on time.

After this, I still got 5 more papers to go before my holidays. Don't think about the 4 papers which stick together and caused me headache or else I cant concentrate in doing my revision due to nervous plus worry...

Actually, I got a lot lot lot lot of things that want to type out here but the time not allow me to do so. Recently really happen a lot of things. Don't know how to say and where to start. I wonder since when I used to think twice when want to write something here. I said before that I want to share everything here or should say express my feeling here. I want to make use of this blog as my personal space, a place that can help me express everything without worry about what to say and which word to use. But now, I cant do this!!! You know, you'll feel not comfortable or even difficult to breathe when you got a lot of things inside and cannot come out... That's what I feel right now!

................................SPEECHLESS...................................

At last, I would like to say thank you to those who wish me good luck to my finals and also who add oil for me! Thanks o!!! surprised when received 'huai ren' msg... hehe^^

p/s: I'm here pray for one of my friend's dad who admitted to hospital due to some health problems. Hopefully your dad can recover soon or I should say he'll definitely get well soon de... Don't worry and stay happy!.. All the friends will support you de. GOD bless~~

Fighting!!!!!!

It's time for me to clear up my brain, take out all the useless things and keep all the notes inside!!! I still left one week to prepare my finals. I really don't know how to manage my time properly. Still the same as last time, I will come out with a study plan which stated which day study which subj. For now, I can say that there are some subj that I don't understand at all and don't know where to start. The notes given very useless because I cant get the answer by refer to the stupid notes. So I need to wait for the lecturer answer so that I can start my revision on the subj. But my lecturer just like a snail, very slow... I already wait for few days for his answer because he PROMISED us that he will send us ASAP!!! But now still nothing in my mail box...@@

Besides the stupid subj, another subj that I don't have confident at all is our BELOVED M.eco... Really make me grow two big head due to this crazy subj~~ Before today, actually I very scare of the finance. I really don't know which one should I apply to the question given. But now, I more understand oon it after I did one sets of the past year... Good job o!!! Thanks o!!! You really help me in this finance. Give me energy to complete the full sets^^

Next, marketing... Another subj that I worried because even though I study n study, doesn't mean that I can write out or even explain it clearly what the answer sheet want. Anyhow, at least this subj I can understand after read all the notes compare to the 1st two subj that I mentioned just now. That one really need luck and GOD to save me...T__T

Then I got bcomm2 which is my 1st paper... Nothing more can study except the past year. So nothing to talk about it. Finally, stat.mtd... My last paper!!! Hahaha!!! Think about the last paper and the last day of my finals also happy till smile in front of my laptop~~ crazy>.< This subj is the only subj that I can fully understand from the start till the end, from 1st chapter till last chapter, the only subj that got the most assignments to do. All chapters also come with assignment. But it really help me. I can try to solve the different question by doing the assignments...

Ooooo.... Time to sleep lo~~ I planned to write something about my thinking at 1st I start this post. But end up, I just remember to typed out all my finals things. Anyway, continue when I free lo!!!

p/s: those who help me in this finals, thx o!!! thank u very muchhi~~ appreciated wat u all had did for me. msg from u, u n u... care from u, u n u... my buddy~~ thx for support me n also suffer with me o!!

THANKS^^ continue~~

yesterday too rush in writing my blog, so I 4gt to thanks him...

thx la, Mr. J... long time didn't chat with you d. Your opinion n support very important to me de o!!! You will always try your best in helping me if I face any problems.

谢谢你们啦，全部的坏人。。。你们最好了。很棒！！！

Today morning, received msg from my lecturer miss mary. She informed us that later marketing class cancel due to her sickness. I was so surprise but I still continue sleep after reply her about the class replacement. Really tired... Take care Miss mary. Hopefully you will be ok during the class replacement tomorrow.

Final is around the corner!!! But I still got one more presentation and also last assignment to go. This sem really caused me tired. Out of 6subj i registered, there are 3 subj that I confuse. How about the other three? I also don't know... Sigh... I think much more better than other three. Gambatte lo... I can do it de~~

Ignore!!! Nowadays I like to ignore something. Even though I already knew it, I'll still ignore it. I don't know what can I do except ignore it. Actually I got stand up to face it, I really got take action into it. But the actions that I took a little bit weird and swt~~ hehe... 1st time use this way to solve the problem. Haha!!! Such a good try!!! Anyhow, I really don't have extra time to think about it now. So let it be la... Lazy to think le@@

It's time to stop now, continue some story when free^^ jia you and gambatte to myself>.<

THANKS^^ my buddies~~

I'm here to say thank you to some of my buddy...

-thx to piggy for chat and talk with me, share with me a lotz...

-thx Ms.Lv for your phone call...(sorry for caused u so pek-chek coz of d stupid digi... ur voice from cute cute de changed till got fire de... pai sae la~~luckily got celcom o... hehe)

-thx to my E buddy who willing to listened about my problems and giving me support... Thank o^^ hopefully u can solve your personal problem as well o! stay happy, I'll always support u de... mentally la ya~~

-thx to my S buddy who so concerned about my mood and keep on chat and talk with me. No matter how, thank you so much for your support... I'm ok de... promised^^

p/s: the persons name E n S here are those buddy which is name by me... which mean I name it by how i called u all de o... Not surname or should I say, not ur real name^^ hehe... only urself noe who r u la ya, my so many yrs de frenzzz. appreciate it>.<

Again, thank u all very much and hopefully I can handle it as what you all told me...=D