I really want to solve all the problems that i 'm facing. 1st time ever, I'm working by controlling my mind and soul.. 1st time ever, I'm eating by controlling my tears and my emotion.
Today, I've tried my very best in controlling every moment not to think. Just work... I'm doing pretty well I guess. Not the result but I learned how to control myself well.
Well, out of sudden i realized I'm not that good enough to handle my own problems. I'm not good enough in doing a lot of things. I need to improve in a lot of areas. Am I deserve to face all these problems? Sorry for create so many problems to anyone that I'm care. Nothing much to say but sorry... No matter how bad am I also I wont say anything that hurt people.. Please don't say anything that might hurt the people that you care. Said it then the scars will be there forever.. I care, I love~
