Tired~~*try to think back wat i had done in dis week*

21.12.09:
Gathering with F4& F5 friends at coffee island.
Happy to see 12 people's there excluded me.
Recall back my memories during F4&F5.
Enjoyed the night with u all^^
miss ya n keep in touch><

22.12.09:
Dinner with friends.
Went to sunshine city after dinner.
'fly' to Mcd for ice-cream till 12++am.

23.12.09:
spent my wednesday with 3 primary best frens.
red box, lunch at Gurney.
Exchange X'mas presents at my hse.
Psr Mlm with them too!..
p/s: thx to someone's ears problem, we need to prepare 3 presents instead of 1... Ms. JTCY!!! no next time ya :P

24.12.09:
X'mas eve!!!
settled genting ticket n so so on that day.
lunch at prangin.
celebrate X'mas eve with 3 primary best frens.
the chef of the day--> Ms. LV, with the help of 2 KPC ppl's(Ms. JTCY & Ms. LLW).
cute cute photographer plus driver of the day: ME^^
Dishes of the day: Rice, tom yam soup, ice-cream, snacks, champagne, personal favorite drinks.

25.12.09:
went out dinner with Ms Lv at somewhere near my hse.

26.12.09:
dinner at paya terubong there.
A new place with about 100 hawker stalls.
Nice place to dine in but very crowded.

27.12.09:
went out with piggy for lunch but actually that's my breakfast+lunch+dinner :P
accom Ms. Lv to QB mall.
coffee island again at night?! I think so if not mistaken@@

28.12.09:
went out with sk2 (2 sk so = sk2).
prangin->sunshine city->gurney
tired tired tired but enjoyed^^

29.12.09:
REST DAY
*grandma hse*

30.12.09:
went out with piggy, turtle, sian sian~~
movie day: AVATAR!!! quite nice to watch><

p/s: thx to those who attended the gathering at coffee island... *yenting, wailing, huiying, helena, yeefoong, peyling, meiann, shuyi, diana, ziwen, zhoyee n weikei.*~listed u all according to who cum 1st~

AT LAST:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MS.HELENA a.k.a MY HONEY^^
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MS.KAREN a.k.a MRS. CHEW*my only colleague*

ALL DA BEST =D

承诺。诺言

承诺。。。
很重要的两个字。
每个人看这两个字的轻重都不一样。
你，
有可能把它看得很重。
时时刻刻都记在脑海中。。。
你，
或许会把你所说的给忘掉。
只因为你完全不在乎它。。。
眼里和心里都没有它。。。
当遵守承诺的人碰上信口开河的人，
那个被承诺两个字背叛的一定是那个遵守承诺的笨蛋！！！
当笨蛋知道守住承诺的只有自己；
却同时间催眠自己这不是事实的时候，
那笨蛋就升级成为超级大笨蛋了！
那，
原谅别人等于善待自己应该成立吗？
倒不如改成：
“相信别人等于亏待自己”
更适合不过！！！
人与人之间的信任真的很脆弱！
承诺也轻得像纸一样，
轻轻一吹就飞走了。
风！
那笨蛋真的被你打败了。。。

怀。念

童年的感觉似乎让我再次感觉到了。。。
好喜欢今晚的风。
感觉很舒服，很舒服。。。
闭上眼感觉自己好像在飘着。
烦恼暂时往脑后抛，人也放松了许多。。。
四年前自己漫步走回家时的感觉又回来了。
那一天，是我第一次也是最后一次自己在这样的夜晚走回家。
虽然不是很远。。。走了大约十五分钟。。。
但是，我真的很享受那个过程。
边走边思考着。。。
真的很棒！
但是，从今以后不会再有第二次了。
因为要凑合这样的机会和勇气真的不容易。
这样的我还存在吗？
以前的我改变了吗？
从以前到现在都和我相处的朋友应该有察觉我的改变吧！
好想好想回到那个时候。。。
感受一下以前的我~~

无。标。题

（一）
当我猜测的和我所希望的成对比时：

我希望自己所猜测的是对的，因为这样足以证明自己很会猜。
但我也希望自己所希望的能够发生。
很矛盾吧？！
曾经说过：“发梦有时比真实世界来得更真。”
然而，我们无法在梦中完成我们在现实生活中所希望的。
可悲吧！
现实果然是现实。
连给我一个发梦的机会也没有。。。

（二）
真真假假；假假真真，
我有时还真的分不清楚。
是看不清楚还是不想看清楚我也不懂。
如果这世上有原点，
我真的很想就站在那里不动。
至少这样我或许可以快乐很多。
突然觉得有时候看东西看得太清楚不是件好事。
但在好奇心的驱使下，
还是会想尽办法希望看得清楚一些。。。
我所看到的，
如果可以简单一点该多好？！

（三）
昨天，
终于能一觉睡到天亮了。
虽然不是很快入眠，
但至少有睡到。
看来昨天想到的办法还蛮有效的。
可是这不是每天都能利用得好办法。
如果每天都要这样才能入眠，
那我可就完蛋了。。。

（四）
抱歉。。。
对妈妈说的。
只是突然觉得很抱歉。
我顿时觉得给妈妈最好的礼物，
是金钱所买不到的。
因为那是：
*孩子的笑容*

抱歉。。。
对自己说的。
勉强的笑，一点都不舒服。
戴着这种面具真的好难受。。。
想要拿下来，
却害怕别人看到这样的自己。
面具，
其实是保护自己的一种工具。
我，
是在两年半前学会带这种面具的。
现在，
只是习惯性地在必备的时候戴上而已。

15.12.2009
7.45pm

RE: Zi Wen~~

LOL... Yup. I still remember the book of cos. MY bao bao picture gt inside dat book too. but only one if not mistaken~~heong heong is malaysian de la. tan boon heong i mean. hehe!!! I think I'll choose 21 dec for our gathering la. About 6 or 7pm... Can u suggest to me any place that v can chat n dinner there? I hav no idea except coffee island, McD and faces... I haven inform them yet. Don't know I able to meet how many people's that day... Coz I usually meet the same group of people's de... Sigh~~~ hopefully this time can meet many of them la... Anyway, I'll tell u after confirm. Either send invitation on fb or msg u. Ur no still d same?

here u r, photo of TBH~~ small 1 but nice 1^^

~zhenying~

Random~1

case 1:

是奇怪的。。。

想想还真的很矛盾。
当你站在中间，要找出平衡点真的好难。

case 2:

原来以前的补习老师还记得我。
儿子结婚也来请我(应该是请我妈)。
真的很意外！
但，
我要说的是：
“老师，您可不用在我家门外高喊我名字吧！”
“您该不会在帮我做宣传吧！哎哟，还好当时我不在。。。”

case 3：

最近常失眠。。。
躺了好几个小时都不能睡。。。
我的周公不要我了吗？
还是被人抢走了？
迷路了吗？
快回来啦！！！
失眠真的很难受:((

case 4:

最近头脑很没空。
有很多烦人的事情没能解决。
我想说：
“每个人的想法不一样，
没有对和错。”
“请不要以为你们的想法和我是一样的！”
我似乎越来越不赞同你们的观点。。。
时间的确改变了很多事情~~
有时候，
我也只不过是坚持自己的想法而已。
想要我改变想法？
努力说服我吧！
可是这个有难度哦！。。

case 5:

为你而写的：PIGGY^^
放心吧！时间会决定一切。
一切都会有最好的安排。。。
不要想太多哦！
有什么事找我聊吧！
说出来会好一点。。。
至少我可以跟你分担一些。。。
不要生气，
事情会解决的。
加油哦！！

分享~~

第一句如果我们之间有1000步的距离你只要跨出第1步,我就会朝你的方向走其余的999 步

第二句通常愿意留下来跟你争吵的人才是真正爱你的人

第三句付出真心才会得到真心却也可能伤得彻底保持距离就能保护自己却也注定永远寂寞

第四句 有时候不是对方不在乎你 而是你把对方看得太重

第五句朋友就是把你看透了还能喜欢你的人

第六句就算是believe中间也藏了一个lie

第七句真正的好朋友并不是在一起就有聊不完的话题而是在一起就算不说话也不会感到尴尬

第八句没有一百分的另一半只有五十分的两个人

第九句为你的难过而快乐的是敌人为你的快乐而快乐的是朋友为你的难过而难过的 就是那些该放进心里的人

第十句 冷漠有时候并不是无情 只是一种避免被伤害的工具

从朋友那里发现这一些熟悉的句子。。。想要分享一下。
我个人最喜欢第十句。你呢？

Special for you~~~

RE: ur post in ur blog~~
To: Zi Wen

Chat box really have limited space for us to chat. I also waiting for the next meeting. Actually I wish to plan a gathering during this holidays. Just haven decide the date and venue yet because still a lot of them haven inform me when they back to pg. So you are available after 19dec? Tell me after confirmed ya! LOL... Bao Bao. He's still my Bao Bao la of cos. But got another one that I prefer de... heong heong~~ Haha!!! Can easily guess who is him right? I already know you'll love your Dan dan forever... Thx for posted my Bao Bao photo for me o! I really like it! Our memory for those days~~~ Miss you all so much!!!

~zhenying~

since u posted for me my Bao Bao~~

here you are--> ur Lin dan^^ happy with it? Hehe


Badminton forever!!! XD

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Really happy because chatting with my sis... My god sister that younger than me~~ Thx for sharing with me your things and my things as well. You know the pain very well... It's sad. Yup, agree with you that it's very difficult to stay alive with such feeling. But hopefully what I can get from this is an great experience. I should think positive rather than negative right?

Anyway, I believed I can learn a lot from this problem. A great lesson in helping me to stay alive, to continue my journey in solving others problems?! Hopefully~~~ How good if I able to see the things in an easy way?

I believed I can "fly"? I was very happy when I read somethings that wrote by one of my friend. I able to see his colourful life, his positive thinking and the ways he cheer up himself. It's kind of the things that I need to learn from him. Great!!!

I was kind of calculating my life in all the ways...everyday, every minutes, every seconds... It's very tired. I'm the one who create problem for myself. I wont blame anyone. Never... Just try to enjoy everything that happen in my life and learn from those negative words because LIFE'S SHORT... We don't know when is the ending point... So just enjoy~~~ *peace*

睡前。。。

原来。。。
这样会很痛。。。
痛得不知道要做什么。
真得好痛！
不懂为什么会那样。。。
真的不懂还是不敢去想？
我。。。无法回答。。。
其实想想也没什么，
但就是感觉到痛！
痛得说不出口。。。
算了，
还是去睡好了。
不想了。。。
晚安~~

30.11.2009
2.20am

nice ones^^

The furthest distance in the world
世界上最遥远的距离
Is not between life and death
不是生与死
But when I stand in front of you
而是 我就站在你面前
Yet you don't know that I love you
你却不知道我爱你

The furthest distance in the world
世界上最遥远的距离
Is not when I stand in front of you
不是 我就站在你面前
Yet you can't see my love
你却不知道我爱你
But when undoubtedly knowing the love from both
而是 明明知道彼此相爱
Yet cannot be together
却不能在一起

The furthest distance in the world
世界上最遥远的距离
Is not being apart while being in love
不是 明明知道彼此相爱 却不能在一起
But when painly cannot resist the yearning
而是 明明无法抵挡这股思念
Yet pretending you have never been in my heart
却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里

The furthest distance in the world
世界上最遥远的距离
Is not when painly cannot resist the yearning
不是 明明无法抵挡这股思念
yet pretending you have never been in my heart
却还得故意装作丝毫没有把你放在心里
but using one's indifferent heart
而是 用自己冷漠的心对爱你的人
To dig an uncrossable river
掘了一条无法跨越的沟渠
For the one who loves you

P/S: somethings that I found at Duwenzhang.net ... very nice & just want to share it here...

UNTITLED 3~~

CHEER UP PLEASE!
WAKE UP PLEASE!
TRY TO FORGET ABOUT THE SAD THINGS PLEASE!
I WANT TO THROW IT OUT OF MY BRAIN!
I WANT TO KEEP A DISTANCE FROM THOSE FEELING!
I HATE IT!
DON'T LIKE IT!
IT'S MAKE ME CRAZY AND LOST CONTROL!
I KNOW HOW TO CONTROL MY TEMPER...
BUT SEEMS LIKE I DON'T KNOW HOW TO CONTROL MY MOOD!
CAN ANYBODY TEACH ME THE WAYS TO CONTROL MY MOOD?
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!
THAT'S ONLY ONE WORD TO DESCRIBE ME!
"STUPID"
HOW STUPID I'M?
ALWAYS REPEATED THE SAME MISTAKES...
I'M SO USELESS!
AND EVEN MORE STUPID IS I NEVER REGRET!
NEVER & EVER!
@.@

P/S:kindly ignore this post if don't understand ya!!! just want to release my tension...
It's time to sleep... without dreams~~~

27.11.2009
1.30am

时间。。。

时间，
一旦溜走了就无法回头。
时间，
让人错过了就无法挽回。
时间，
总是成为玩弄我们的工具。。。
它，
让我们懊悔所发生的一切。
它，
让我们内疚自己所做过的一切却不给我们补偿的机会。
我们无法掌控时间，但却无时无刻的被它掌控着。。。
我们无法摆脱它。
相反的，
我们无时无刻都要迎接它的到来。
它为我们带来欢乐；惊喜；痛苦；遗憾；伤心，
所有的喜怒哀乐。
有时很想把时间倒流，
改变一下我想改变的事情。
但仔细的想一想，
如果真的能把时间倒回，
我又能改变什么？
即使倒回，
也只不过把发生的一切在重复一遍。
这，
不也只是再折磨自己吧！。。
我的时间，
让我在我的人生中留了无数的遗憾和内疚。
开心的事情却少得差点记不起来。。。
我的时间，
似乎每天都在给我不一样的考验，
要我学会怎样去处理那些事情。
而我，
却越来越不懂得如何去解决那些烦人的事情。
唯一的解决方式是：
“让时间来帮忙我决定一切吧！”

p/s：时间，我的所有问题就靠你了~~~

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Actually I should be feel a little bit relax now... or a little bit happy... But, I cant even smile after I back from college. I'm still ok while there, just suddenly like that when I on the way go home with paper. I don't think she can feel it because I didn't say anything besides answering her questions. I just want to get back my mood so what I did was volume up the k-pop while listening and discussing with her about the finals.

So sad when think about all the papers that had been tested. I can say you can just shot me down by just a single subj. I really thought that I can relax after the 5th paper which is MIS. But now...... and the worse part is my confidence in my last paper had gone after continues shot by 4 subj in 2days time. I worry how if I also can't do well in my stat. mtd? How if the questions are those I don't know how to do? Sigh...... Can I concentrate in doing the revision of stat.mtd? Can I just get my mind away from the previous papers? I wondering...

I don't really want to write something about my finals for these 4 subj. Don't even want to think about it. So disappointed to myself... So angry to myself... I don't want to suffer anymore but can I? Sigh......

Today or I should say recently I found that myself got such a negative attitude!!! How can? Why I always did the same mistake? I found that myself like to shut people down nowadays. I don't mean that... and so sorry to the 'victims' in this case. I hate this kind of attitude but I'm the one who did that!!! I wanna change! change! change! Don't want to be like this! Hate!!!

Sometimes, I like to play with some friends without think twice... The word play here means 'kacau-ing' in malay. Err... I don't know why. Just wondering why sometimes after I kacau them, I feel quite bad and keep on think about the things that I did just now isn't too over or isn't too bad?! ARGH!!! I should not do all these stupid things! This is not me!!! Sorry if what I did had cause you angry or what... SORRY~~~

I really need a rest after my last paper which is on Monday... I couldn't stand it anymore... There are something wrong inside my body system... I can easily feel it or I should say it already happen. I just hope that everything gonna be fine after this. Please back to normal, I don't want any 'error' happen in my body system. If next time still like this and cant back to normal, I think it's time for me to go search for Dr...

That all for today... Just want to clear up my mind about the sad sad things......
Blogs still unable to cheer me up... What should I do????????????!

我想做的。。。

啊！
啊啊！！
啊啊啊！！！
啊啊啊啊！！！！
啊啊啊啊啊！！！！！
啊啊啊啊啊啊！！！！！！
啊啊啊啊啊啊啊！！！！！！！
啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊！！！！！！！！

我要大声地喊出来！
我要发泄！
我要丢掉所有的包袱和烦恼！

*不好意思，因为没地方发泄只好用这种方法。。。不懂的尽可以忽略这一贴。。。*
加油！！！是时候啃书了。。。

Untitled~~

Today, I had started my 1st paper for this semester which is bcomm2... Well, a little bit shocked when I 1st open up the question paper and saw the questions. The questions totally different with the previous semester or I should say it's just 5% similar to the previous one . Anyhow, I had tried my best in finish all the question on time.

After this, I still got 5 more papers to go before my holidays. Don't think about the 4 papers which stick together and caused me headache or else I cant concentrate in doing my revision due to nervous plus worry...

Actually, I got a lot lot lot lot of things that want to type out here but the time not allow me to do so. Recently really happen a lot of things. Don't know how to say and where to start. I wonder since when I used to think twice when want to write something here. I said before that I want to share everything here or should say express my feeling here. I want to make use of this blog as my personal space, a place that can help me express everything without worry about what to say and which word to use. But now, I cant do this!!! You know, you'll feel not comfortable or even difficult to breathe when you got a lot of things inside and cannot come out... That's what I feel right now!

................................SPEECHLESS...................................

At last, I would like to say thank you to those who wish me good luck to my finals and also who add oil for me! Thanks o!!! surprised when received 'huai ren' msg... hehe^^

p/s: I'm here pray for one of my friend's dad who admitted to hospital due to some health problems. Hopefully your dad can recover soon or I should say he'll definitely get well soon de... Don't worry and stay happy!.. All the friends will support you de. GOD bless~~

Fighting!!!!!!

It's time for me to clear up my brain, take out all the useless things and keep all the notes inside!!! I still left one week to prepare my finals. I really don't know how to manage my time properly. Still the same as last time, I will come out with a study plan which stated which day study which subj. For now, I can say that there are some subj that I don't understand at all and don't know where to start. The notes given very useless because I cant get the answer by refer to the stupid notes. So I need to wait for the lecturer answer so that I can start my revision on the subj. But my lecturer just like a snail, very slow... I already wait for few days for his answer because he PROMISED us that he will send us ASAP!!! But now still nothing in my mail box...@@

Besides the stupid subj, another subj that I don't have confident at all is our BELOVED M.eco... Really make me grow two big head due to this crazy subj~~ Before today, actually I very scare of the finance. I really don't know which one should I apply to the question given. But now, I more understand oon it after I did one sets of the past year... Good job o!!! Thanks o!!! You really help me in this finance. Give me energy to complete the full sets^^

Next, marketing... Another subj that I worried because even though I study n study, doesn't mean that I can write out or even explain it clearly what the answer sheet want. Anyhow, at least this subj I can understand after read all the notes compare to the 1st two subj that I mentioned just now. That one really need luck and GOD to save me...T__T

Then I got bcomm2 which is my 1st paper... Nothing more can study except the past year. So nothing to talk about it. Finally, stat.mtd... My last paper!!! Hahaha!!! Think about the last paper and the last day of my finals also happy till smile in front of my laptop~~ crazy>.< This subj is the only subj that I can fully understand from the start till the end, from 1st chapter till last chapter, the only subj that got the most assignments to do. All chapters also come with assignment. But it really help me. I can try to solve the different question by doing the assignments...

Ooooo.... Time to sleep lo~~ I planned to write something about my thinking at 1st I start this post. But end up, I just remember to typed out all my finals things. Anyway, continue when I free lo!!!

p/s: those who help me in this finals, thx o!!! thank u very muchhi~~ appreciated wat u all had did for me. msg from u, u n u... care from u, u n u... my buddy~~ thx for support me n also suffer with me o!!

THANKS^^ continue~~

yesterday too rush in writing my blog, so I 4gt to thanks him...

thx la, Mr. J... long time didn't chat with you d. Your opinion n support very important to me de o!!! You will always try your best in helping me if I face any problems.

谢谢你们啦，全部的坏人。。。你们最好了。很棒！！！

Today morning, received msg from my lecturer miss mary. She informed us that later marketing class cancel due to her sickness. I was so surprise but I still continue sleep after reply her about the class replacement. Really tired... Take care Miss mary. Hopefully you will be ok during the class replacement tomorrow.

Final is around the corner!!! But I still got one more presentation and also last assignment to go. This sem really caused me tired. Out of 6subj i registered, there are 3 subj that I confuse. How about the other three? I also don't know... Sigh... I think much more better than other three. Gambatte lo... I can do it de~~

Ignore!!! Nowadays I like to ignore something. Even though I already knew it, I'll still ignore it. I don't know what can I do except ignore it. Actually I got stand up to face it, I really got take action into it. But the actions that I took a little bit weird and swt~~ hehe... 1st time use this way to solve the problem. Haha!!! Such a good try!!! Anyhow, I really don't have extra time to think about it now. So let it be la... Lazy to think le@@

It's time to stop now, continue some story when free^^ jia you and gambatte to myself>.<

THANKS^^ my buddies~~

I'm here to say thank you to some of my buddy...

-thx to piggy for chat and talk with me, share with me a lotz...

-thx Ms.Lv for your phone call...(sorry for caused u so pek-chek coz of d stupid digi... ur voice from cute cute de changed till got fire de... pai sae la~~luckily got celcom o... hehe)

-thx to my E buddy who willing to listened about my problems and giving me support... Thank o^^ hopefully u can solve your personal problem as well o! stay happy, I'll always support u de... mentally la ya~~

-thx to my S buddy who so concerned about my mood and keep on chat and talk with me. No matter how, thank you so much for your support... I'm ok de... promised^^

p/s: the persons name E n S here are those buddy which is name by me... which mean I name it by how i called u all de o... Not surname or should I say, not ur real name^^ hehe... only urself noe who r u la ya, my so many yrs de frenzzz. appreciate it>.<

Again, thank u all very much and hopefully I can handle it as what you all told me...=D

T__T assignmentzzzzzzzzz

On the way thinking about the marketing assignment... I can't think about anything right now.
Take out the paper but didn't write anything till now. I don't know what should I write... don't know how to explain about the report... I have no idea at all!!! Tomorrow need to pass it to ks for combine all our points but I'm now still......

Tomorrow still got marketing quiz to do~~ Still blur with the chapters... I still got my bcomm CV and also presentation to settle tomorrow due to the interview start on thursday. I don't have enough time to do all the assignments... Statistical method assignment 4 had been send to us then still got mid-term this week. Extra class some more. Then this weekends need to discuss about the marketing assignment, settle all the things because next wednesday need to present it. Next thursday another presentation for MIS... Then time to submit our CV... Another week also having bcomm group presentation...

I'm now like growing two big heads. Don't know which one to do, don't know which one to start, how to start? what to write? explanation? products? ideas? My GOD!!! I like stop breathing when think of all the assignments, presentations, quizzes, mid-term....... Can I relax after this? NO WAY!!! Finals is coming up in the november!!!

Gonna faint faint faint~~~
I like busy life but not as busy like this. This caused me to sick, sleep late, not as energetic as before or even not as cheerful as before... Really headache...

Hopefully I can finish up my tasks all and do it great!!! So do my group members la...

Marketing: youwei(hopefully he change abit of his pointless ideas and d ways he presenting his idea...), kathy, khaishean and me!!! JIA YOU... Gambatte o^^

MIS: kathy, khaishean n me again but add in another new member, sweehun instead of youwei...*sound better?! LOL... ADD OIL LA... for presentation cos v already finished d hardcopy~~

It's time for me to continue the thinking la~~ hopefully i got some ideas for it^^

Brief~~~

thursday--> sick for whole day... gastric, headache and whole body like a hot pot, hot till can use it to cook something. Ate panadol actifast and sleep at 11pm. My record of this year, never try to sleep as early as that day.

friday--> went out with kat, ks, yw and 2 special persons-->kw n ws!!! bowling, lunch, red box, shopping, dinner with them... Actually I can do it but due to sickness on thursday, i feel very tired after spent my whole day with them. Anyway, I still sleep at 2am.

saturday--> queensbay with frens to buy her printer ink and also dinner at there. Night time, my emo start due to some reason... I knew the reason of course but just don't want to think about that. Sorry is the only word I can say to those I feel my emo. I'm sure you feel my emo as well... If not you won't simply msg me and ask me that ques as late as 3am. Actually, I do feel ur not ok at d same time. By the way you answer me. But, just ignore it due to I don't know the reason.

sunday--> whole day rush my assignments things and do some searching. I plan not to blogging but due to some reason, I blog again to type out all my feeling, my question marks, my anger, everything that come across my mind!!! You are just like a bomb, an active volcano like me. Don't know how to express your problems to others. Feel like want to say it but failed. Ms. Lv said is your problem but not mine. But I still think that I'm the problems maker.


*if really got things to tell me, just tell... No need to hidden off in front of me. Don't I tell you before I'm a good listener?! If you are a good actor, then I wont notice d. But u'r not... U noe u'r like increase my volcano temperature wen got things to say but din say at last! Hopefully you are fine after a sleep.*

*SHOUT OUT!!!!!!*~this post is specially to a person who hurt by me~ i don't mean it...

Problems!!! pls away from me!!! I don't want anything extra to disturb my life! Why I cant get what I want? Why so many problems come across me these few weeks? Why cant just let me be what I want to be and also live in my own world? I want my personal space!.. My one and the only one. I don't want to change anything, at least for now. Did all the human need such stupid problems to grow up? Can I stay away from those problems? How long that I need to suffer due to all these problems? It's make me feel like so difficult to breathe. I don't like such feeling or even hate it.

To: PM
*maybe you don't know what you did had caused me headache and even faced such problems.*
*maybe you don't know that what I want and what I don't like.*
*it's my fault and I should try my best to solve it*

p/s: thx piggy for sharing with me and also suggested me some solutions. But I cant use it cos it's really rude and I cant force myself to use it. Still need to learn a lot of things from you... the ways of solving problems^^

THX Ms.Lv also la~~ share a lot with you@@

我。。。

我，
突然间不知道要写些什么。。。
脑袋一片空白。
最近的我似乎对信任这两个字有了不一样的概念。
信任似乎已经不再出现在我的字典里。
突然觉得好多人都变得很陌生。
是他们变了，还是我变了？！
有时不是不要去想，
而是不敢去想；
怕我得到的答案和我猜测的一样。
我怕我承受不了，怕自己会因此而失去重心。
我好想把我的脑袋挤得满满的，
让它没空间去想那折磨我的东西。
人，
真是犯贱。
想得到别人的关爱，却同时间觉得那是一种负担。
我想，
得到的越多，失去的更多。
想要得到，就必须能承受日后的一切一切。。。
因为把你们看成是朋友，
所以才不想相信自己的耳朵所听到的；
就因为是朋友，
才选择忘记我所听到的。
只因为我不想失去你们，
任何一个朋友。。。
我真的很不想伤害你们，
抱歉如果你们要得我给不到。。。
真希望一切的一切会是那么的顺利一点，
友情可以维持到永远。。。
现在的我是清醒的，
清醒地知道什么该做，什么不该。
但，
有谁能告诉我，我能继续相信你们吗？
好希望我想的不是真的；
好希望我能失去知觉，
远离这难受的泉源。
我想，
最适合我的生活莫过于一个人的生活；
再加上我的家人和少数值得信任的朋友。。。
我圈圈的范围，
就是这样不大也不小。
不要再改变了~~：））

我的心情~~

有时，
会莫名其妙的开心。。。
是有原因的，
或是没原因的，
都无所谓~~
我真的很希望每天都可以开开心心的。。。
虽然觉得事情不会那么顺利和完美，
还是希望奇迹会发生。
人，
总是那么天真。
总知道天下没有那么好的事，
还是笨笨的期待奇迹的到来。
当期待没发生时，
心情会顿时间跌到谷底。。。
伤心透了。。。
昨天，
被一位朋友问到：
“人，为什么会在低落时想喝酒？”
我回答：
“想喝就喝，没什么原因。”
或许，是想把自己弄得疲倦？！
可以一觉睡天亮？？
他说：
“是想尝试酒的苦味，那么苦的我都能喝其他的应该没问题。。。”
好一个我没想过的答案。
人之所以喝酒，
是想把自己的健康弄得一团糟？？
又或者孤独想借酒消愁？
是寂寞还是难过？
是快乐还是欢乐？
看来每个人都有自己不一样的解答。。。
我不爱喝酒。
却爱在新年或庆祝节日上喝点酒。。。
偶尔会想喝喝，绝对没有上瘾的可能。
我不爱它那苦涩的味道，
却会在低落时想到它。。。
想想~~
他的答案或许是对的。
真的替我上了一堂宝贵的课啊！！！
又得到了我总来没有想过的问题。
你对酒还真有学问啊！
奉劝：
如果没有办法把持酒的魅力，
千万别碰它哦！！！
它的魅力真的很大。
可我却把持得到^^
很棒！！！

My life~~

My life like getting busy and busy now until I always feel tired. It's already more than a week I didn't update my blog. That's nothing special happen recently, if got also I don't know how to say. Just forget about it easier. Thursday--1st of oct was my sch mooncake festival... Went there to enjoy for about 5 hours. Yesterday--2nd of oct, playing badminton with friends. Really tired after badminton... So even I already sleep for many hours, I still feel sleepy today.

Another thing that make me tired was about my grandma. she admit to hospital 3days ago. I go visit her last night. She look very tired after taken the medicine or injection. According to my uncle, she admit to hospital because of high blood pressure. She don't have high blood pressure one but maybe because of getting older and older, body started to have problems. My grandma not healthy as last time anymore. Her level of healthy decreased after my father past away. She's sad and can't accept the truth. So now, she like already forget about my father already past away and keep on asking about some question regarding my dad. Sometime, I just answer:"erm..." because I really don't know how to answer. I think my uncle they all also don't know the answer as well. Sigh~~

If my life is full of happiness, I do wish I can live until 90 or even older. But if my life is full of problems and also sickness, then I rather to leave earlier and don't want to suffer the sickness and all that. It's all fate and we cant change anything... Just enjoy our life when we can... Enjoy before trouble arrive to us~~

grandma~~ get well soon^^ I'll pray for you and I love you^^

smile and be happy~~~everyone...

nightzZZ, may all the happiness be with us>.<

星期二~~

首先，要先祝我的朋友生日快乐！！！大一岁咯，希望你梦想成真吧^^要快乐哦~~

接下来就要开始报告今天的行程了。。。今天，陪了朋友去看final destination。我的妈呀！！！好恶心哦！要不是被迫陪她看，我是不会冒这个险去看的。真的拿她没办法。。。今天午餐吃了六福楼的凤梨炒饭，蛋挞等等，没什么特别的。味道也不会很特别，就普通嘛。。。虽然只花了我半天的时间，可我真的感觉很累很累。可能熬夜久了，精力不足了。我想是时候要调整我的睡眠时间，但要调整真的很难。。。不管有多难，我想一星期至少不要超过三晚都在熬夜吧！我有感觉我的身体状况不是很好；很容易生病，精神也变差了。。。

最近，我发现了蛮多事情的。。。发现了却没有得到解答。苦恼啊！！！好像知道原因却不知道怎么得到答案。问？会得到真实的答案吗？有时候问了还是有被欺骗的可能。看待欺骗，我已经有自己的一套方法。。。如果不是很重要的事，就不要理他吧！拆穿了对我也没什么影响。。。要说谎，首先必须确认你的记忆力有多好;再确定真实的一切没有被记录下来就像写部落还是什么的。不管怎样，给我知道了也没差。我不会拆穿你，只是会因此而不那么信任你。这是你自己自找的，谁叫你没学好说谎的基本条件？！算了，反正没什么大件事。

好久没用华语写部落了。。。花了我好多精力和精神。所以不想写了，好懒惰哦！！期待明天的到来。。。我亲爱的妈咪没工，我把整天的时间献给她。好耶！！！可以去探望阿嫲和妈咪的朋友咯！！晚安哦~~但愿有个美好的美梦^^

One week holiday?!

Let's list down the things that I need to do during this holiday...

1. settle my MIS forums.

2. finish my sta.mtd assignment 3.

3. try to think some idea for marketing assignment.

4. MIS assignment as well.

5. try to understand 2 subj which are MIS and also finance.

6. find one day to lunch or dinner with Ms. Janet to meet her and pass her the b'day present.

7. find another day to pass present to Ms. boey and also dinner with her.

8. movie with piggy and turtle(an order from piggy... so must do it...T__T)

9. go grandma house when mommy off.

10. whatever things that I need to settle!!!

I had listed out 10 things but I don't think I can finish it all this holiday... I knew I got a lot of things to do but I don't feel like doing it due to my laziness again!!! Sigh... Lazy bear!!!

*stop here and to be continue*

Unforgettable Day--->>Gathering~~

Yesterday, 18 of september... My journey started at 10 am. I went to school to attended my lesson until 8 p.m.(I back at 7 p.m). At that time, I still haven't decide either want to go for my F5 gathering at coffee island because of the heavy rain. Well, I had decided to go after received a msg from joey: u must go, if not i'll get angry!!! Then, no choice. I must go there to meet them after fetch my mom back at 10.

The rain really heavy... heavy till they changed venue to Ms.helena house. But the problem is I never go to my honey house before(we used to call each other honey from F5 onwards). Luckily her house is somewhere near penang road where is the place I work as part time before. So, I didn't lost when find her house. Unforgettable because of the heavy rain and no electricity supply for almost 1 hr at her house. Sigh...

This is still the small case for me, another big case is it had caused me use about 1 hr+ to go back from her house at the 12 AM!!! This was the 1st time I being stuck in the middle of the road at the midnight due to the traffic jam. Why jam?? Hmm... They blocked the dato kramat area there due to the praying ceremony then forced me to turn into york road and Scotland road. The road was so jam because all the cars had to turn into that road to go whatever place that they want. That time, I wonder why I can stuck in the middle there and can't move forward for half and hour?! Finally, I changed my strategy to use another road to go back which is greenlane!!! When I on the bridge, I look down and found that the masjid there surrounded with water! GODS, it's so deep the flood. No wonder all the cars stuck at there... Anyway, I able to get back to my lovely home after I turn here and there. Such a scary night~~*due to the flood and so on, I used a lot of shortcut which is not suppose to use because it listed there: no turning!*

Sigh... Luckily I had activate my facebook mobile so I able to use my hp to post status on my facebook to keep contact with those on9 friends. I want to call people to chat but I don't know who should I call because it's already late. Thanks for those who msg me to concern about my safety. Really thanks you all because I never expect you all guys will find me and ask me the same questions:"u no on9 tonite?, wat happen to u? are u ok?". Thanks again and sorry because I know I let you all worried about me at the late midnight. That why the 1st thing I do when I back was turn on my pc and tell you all that I'm safe!!!

This was a big lesson for me and also an great experience to teach me that:" don't drive alone at the midnight, don't ever go out alone when rain heavily". I'm nervous but I able to calm down myself to find another way to go back! cheers^^

Back with some changes in my life*small one*

I'm back after stopped blogging for quite sometime. 1st of all, I would like to pronounce:" I still haven't get well from my sick... what's a pity!!". Recently, I always sleep late which is after 2 or even 3 am. This' not good but what to do?! I used to it already. I want to change back to normal sleeping time but really difficult. I had tried to do it yesterday, slept at 1 something. Hmm... not bad, a good start. Hopefully I can change back to normal sleeping time which is about 12 am soon.

Nowadays I need to talk word by word, slow down my tempo so that others could listen what I'm trying to say due to the stupid flu. Faster get well because I really tied to repeat and repeat the same thing to make them understand. Besides this, there are some funny things happen due to voice problem. They like misunderstand what I had said and keep on laughing. Sigh... But, it's really funny sometime... Haha

Anything happen recently? Hmm... I had been asked some question by someone. Really out of my expectation. Weird question... Actually I think I got did something on that dat day until this cute friend suddenly come out with a questionnaire. I skipped some question but I do answer some questions perfectly. But, I really speechless to some questions. I don't know what to answer so I think the best answer would be:" don't know". :))

Another thing to make me happy today, right now!!! I really happy about it! Finally, I put down already. I'd been tried for long long time. I'll feel moody sometime due to this but now, no matter what we chat on, I still can laugh till *no word describe*. Thanks for keep on told me something that I don't like or even hate it. Thank you very much, I can put down because of this^^

Haha... Ying ying big girl already, always learn from mistakes and also challenges!!! Good luck to all my friends especially Ms. Lv. Haha... You know what I mean~~ Nightz and all the best!!!

midnight~~~*the power of my pink crystal?!*

It's late, but I still want to post somethings here. Thanks... Thanks for everything. I really surprised about the things you told me just now. From the day I started to know you till now, this is not the 1st time you try to tell me all these things. Appreciate it~~

Thanks for all the nice words you use to me and also those sentences that can cheer me up from being moody for few days. Thanks for being my friend and telling me all these things that I never expect can hear from you.

It's happy when you able to meet your old friends after graduated from primary school. The feeling is great when they remember something about you and share with you some story happened long long time ago. Appreciated it~~ keep in touch^^

But, something different to the things happen in last 3 yrs. The feeling not same as last 3 yrs. I don't know why. Maybe I know but I don't wat to accept the truth. The things happen tonight make me back to the situation happened in last 3 yrs, think of the things happened and wondering~~ My life didn't look like my life before after the pink crystal... Bought it to solve something but wonder what 'IT' did to my life?! Funny!!!

Anyway, I'd already decide to forget the past and look forward to my future. Hopefully my future that waiting for me full of happiness and may luck always be with me!!! Thanks again...

Good night, sleep tight & sweet dreams to me^^

FINISHED!!!

Finally, I had finished my marketing assignment. Really sick with this assignment. Erm... Actually I sick with all assignments. I'm a person that want everything especially my coursework to be perfect, not to others but at least to myself. That's why I usually take a long period of time to complete my assignment due to the "perfectionist" attitude. Haha... I choose yogurt drink as my product and compare it with 3 different brands. So I'm quite pro in yogurt drink now due to this assignment. Haha... So, time now is 3am and I still staring at my laptop with eyes open. I wonder can I wake up tomorrow and stay awake for my marketing lesson from 11 till 4pm. Oops, is today... 8hours later. Hopefully I can wake up on time and good luck to me for the marketing quiz tomorrow.

It's time to sleep, nightzzz... ~.~

School Holidays??!

School holidays started from saturday but unfortunately, not consider as holiday for us. My busy life which full of assignments started with 5 assignment from 4 different subj(still got another 2 subj still away from assignment). I started discuss with my beloved paper regarding the malaysian economy assignment on saturday. Actually not really started this assignment because we discuss something about the marketing individual assignment which is due on 2nd of sept. Sigh... headache when think about those assignment@@

Today morning, same as last few weeks actually... Our badminton time!!! But today slightly different due to my neck or shoulder problem, I not sure. I don't know why I cant fully turn to the right side until now!!! It's so uncomfortable and pain...T___T

Hmm... just now was discuss with my beloved paper again, doing statistical method assignment with her. By looking at her face, I know she almost give up to this subject already. Sigh... paper, I know you don't like math but what to do? You need to try your best in doing it too. I'll support you anytime! Gambate^^ don't give up, I know you can do it!!! I like to do math actually, like to play with all formulas, like the feeling when I press the enter and get the answer correctly. Really enjoy it compare with memorizing all the notes... zZZ

Time to prepare going out to fetch my mommy!!! *to be continue*

Lucky no.9 from my 'mei mei'~~

TAGGED BY AO ZHU

1. Besides your lips , where is the favourite spot to get kissed ?
cheek^_^

2. How did you feel when you woke up this MORNING ?
eXtremely tied!!!

3. Who was the last person / people you took a photo WITH ?
Friends~~

4. Would you consider yourself SPOILED ?
I don't think so...

5. Will you ever donate BLOOD ?
If really need it

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite SEX ?
g0t but not a close one

7. Do you want someone to be DEAD ?
I'm not that bad la~~~=D

8. What does your last text message SAY?
ok>__<

9. What are you thinking about right NOW ?
all the assignments...T___T

1o. Do you want someone to be with you right NOW ?
definately!!!

11. What was the time you went to bed last night ?
2.30am :P

12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now ?
parkson *if not mistaken*

13. Is someone on your mind right NOW ?
yUp~~

14. Who was the last person who text YOU ?
mY bElOveD paper a.k.a L.wEi

TEN Lucky Person to do this quiz:
1. Piggy
2. Lavy
3. S.Kim
4. Sean
5. Kathy
6. Paper *mission impossible 1*
7. Miao *mission impossible 2*
8. a person name U *mission impossible 3 + not really want to know...XD*
9. Janet!!! *wondering*
10. Snowie a.k.a turtle *almost forgot my dear LOL*
11. easier... all my friends will do^^

tIreD~~~

Actually, I don't know why I always feel tied since my new sem started. Maybe I cant get use with the new time table or maybe because of my activities? Wondering~~

Today, I woke up at 8.30am and go for badminton with my friends. Then my last activity was go yam-cha with friends. I like the drink that I order today-->>berry blust. It's sweet and able to cheer me up from being moody.

Haha!!! I think I should thanks some of you that help me get out from the trouble I had met. Thanks for telling me your's thinking and because of your's thinking, I able to changed my early 'scientific feeling' to 50% 'empty feeling'. Special thanks to Ms. S because she is the only one who told me a lot of her own opinion in this special case. I know what I want and I know I wont sacrifice anything to get this thing. That's me!!! The one who always let people headache with my thinking and my complicated brain. I think I'm quite special in this particular case because my opinion usually cant agree by majority. Sigh...

Bed time!!! Sleep well & sweet dreams guys~~


*to be continue*

Complicated@@

I feel much more better these two days if compare with the moody days for nearly a week. I can sleep well started from yesterday night. Maybe too tied after my whole day lessons and go for dinner then supper with Ms.Lv and one of her housemate. I was chatting non-stop with her housemate while eating my favourite ice-cream... Yummy~~~

I think I can only feel comfortable when my life getting busy and busy until I don't have enough time for me to think nonsense. So, I should look forward to busy life from now. It's good for me and even my friends because I no need to complaint to them when I face some problem in thinking. Err, did I tell them everything about what had I think. Haha!!! You know what's my answer. I won't tell anybody 100% about it. This's to protect myself. I'm a person that over protect myself from being hurt, I admit. You can think about it if you know me in my real life. try to get closed to me then you'll notice. That's why I got a lot of friends from kindergarden, primary, secondary, choir, net friend and so on. But I only had few 'sisters a.k.a buddy' who really closed to me. Thanks my buddy, in sharing everythings with me, appreciated it^^

Sometime, I do wish that someone I care do understand me instead of I understand them. But I usually cant get the thing that I wish for. Sigh... SAD!!! When I get the chance to think, I usually think about things happen few years ago or even long long time ago. I really feel regret when I think about some friendship happen in my past. I wish we can be friend forever. Hope I can still meet with some of you, I don't want to let you all stay far away from me.

Finally, I think I need a person who called as 'soulmate'. I already wished for a long time. So, can I get it? Let's wait and see. Hmm, my friend... Don't you all wish to has a soulmate too?! Let's pray!!! I think some of you might know what's the type of soulmate that I wish for and which drama influenced me much in getting a soulmate... Haha!!!

It's time for me to sleep. NightzZZ~~~

Mo0Dy~~~

Don't know what happen to me... I feel moody again just now, half an hour before I start blogging. Hmm... feel bad when moody. It's just like everything cant going well and smooth. This feeling make me feel sad, just want to keep quiet and continue my typing, searching and whatever whatever I want to do.

I seldom hope for anything nowadays. I don't know when I changed my mind until not to hope for anything. To me, I think we always failed to get whatever we hope for and thus, disappointment come to us. Well, I hate disappointment. I think I give up to hope due to disappointment that I get from the word-->>hope. If I didn't try to hope, maybe I'll feel surprise when something good happen to me. That's why I always tell myself not to hope for but awaiting the surprise.

You know, I'll happy for few days if what I hope come true in my dreams. How stupid am I?! If everything that I want can happen in my dreams, can I just hope not to wake up and stay happy in my dreams? sigh...... think too much already. =.="' So, my dear friend...... You know, sometime I like to stare at a point and start my day dreams. Think about all my dreams and smile. =D

Miracles, where are you?? Can you happen in my life and cheer me up? For sure you know what's the things that I need!!!

NightZzz... Stay happy and be grateful^^
p/s: don't think too much le~~~

Busy Life~~~

Today journey started at 9am. Well, quite early to me. But still I join all the activities with my coursemates. 9-12am was playing badminton with them. Then 2pm rushed to gurney for red box. Anyway, we start to sing at 3 to 7++. Dinner at Mr.POT. Tasted nice actually or maybe i too hungry@@

Once I reached home, I checked my voiss and found that M.Eco assignment had been posted. It's a individual assignment and good luck to me because I don't understand the question at all. Good^^ **Hope that Mr. karpal will discuss a little bit on it**

Sigh... It's time for me to have a rest now. Tomorrow got 2 classes waiting for me. Let's fighting~~ Nightzzz

H.A.T.E! ! !

ARGH!!! 1st time, I hate a person very much. Attitude, personality and watever watever on you. Sorry to say that, you so powerful until can affected my mood. I don't know why a person can be like that. You are not stupid, you able to do something that we don't like to make us get angry about you. *clap clap clap* I know you feel that. But, why you don't do something on it? Or, you wait me to do something to you? Hmm... sound nice right?! Haha!!! I almost get crazy because of you. Still can laugh while I get angry and 'geram'. Well, I'm now think about the plan to do something to you. You don't want to change that, then I'll be the one who change it. Hopefully I can think about a plan. A nice and perfect plan. XD

Another thing is myself. I angry to myself as well. If I able to reject them once they requested. Then, I need not to have such problem now... What to do? I'm still me, didn't change much in how I treat my friend. Now, I think it's time for me to learn how to be rude sometimes. I think it's time for me to change. Not to be a nice and good person in watever way. Think more deep inside, more critically and even more to myself rather than others. I admit that the person I hate did have some nice attitude that others don't have. What I try to say is there's no such thing is 100%perfect in this world. Everyone of us sure had some negative attitude that we did not know it. Or maybe we knew it but don't change it. If your attitude is hated by majority of your friend, then you should try to figure out what's the problem and change it. This's for your own good, in your relationship with people, friendship or even your career. Again, hate!!! You know, this is the first time I hate a person when I think about you, look at you, near to you, see your no. or even name display on my hp screen, your picture and also when I talk to you... What a pity if I need to suffer for quite a long time. Do something please, I don't want to hate you because you are my friend. Sigh... Hope that time can change all this things and SMILE:D

CHEER UP!!! ying~~

ooO ya, happy b'day to Ms Lv la~~~ hope that you get what you hope for and good luck la!! Be happy la. Don't think about d ben dan. sure sad when think about it la. I tried before you know la, on my b'day. I'll treat d ben dan more serious the how d ben dan did to me!!! Muahahahaha^^

I'm back after a long break^^

Haha... August already. I'll start my new sem tomorrow... Hopefully it's a lucky sem for me in everythings. It's a long sem and I know I'll sure get busy after the assignments and quizzes announced. So now, I had been stop blogging for quite a long time. What's the acivities that I did in my 2 weeks holiday?

1st of all, I joined a trip with 3 of my coursemate to langkawi island. Stay there for 3 days and 2 nights. 1st time been there, really enjoy my holiday at there. We went to few well known places. I really miss the beaches after I came back and I swear, I'll travel there again and agian to enjoy the beautiful beaches and the cable car!!! LOL...

Besides the langkawi trip, I spent my time go movie, lunch, dinner, supper with my friends. Other than that, I usually stay at home online, watch dramas at youtube, fb-ing, chat-ing... Why I didn't call some of my friends out to have a meet? Now I explain about it:"I'm sick after back from langkawi!!! Sore throat and flu... ." Luckily I just got flu and sore throat, if not...... haha!!! H1N1 nowadays really serious in Malaysia. Hope that we can away from the H1N1 virus as soon as possible. Pray for the victim of H1n1~~~

Well, today!!! I met someone I miss for a long time. Really happy while meet him when shopping with mom at Gama. He was a very good man who love me very much while I was small and even now... Hehe... People's at my choir usually called him teacher. But because I used to called him 'ge ge', so I just called him until now even though he already reach 40+. He should happy because still got people called him 'gege' instead of uncle. LOL!!! Hmm... I quite scared him while at choir there. But actually, I liked him. He taught me a lot of things from the days I started knew him. I really have fun during the days when I joined choir. I like to sing. I knew it after I started my choir life while primary. I won't forget the memories while singing and travelling with my beloved choir friends. Thanks to choir, I able to joined the "carmen" opera. That was a great experience for me during my choir life. Thanks to choir again, it really coloured my life and I got the chances to learned the songs from different country. There are some songs I really loved it like potong padi, Dahil sai'yo(forget d spelling, if not mistaken it's a philippine song which mean because of you in eng) and some chinese songs too!!! ARRGH!!! I miss the songs and the days while singing with them now!!! But I know, everyting will be a past for me. So just take it as an experience and memory. I'll keep the memories well deep inside my heart, forever...

Now, it's time for me to sleep. Sleep early, stay healthy!!! Haha... Sweet dreams^^

About Ms. J~~

Ms. J, one of my best friend. A true friend is to share all the sadness that happen to you. I felt really happy because you did it. I was happy when you called me is to share your sadness that happened you. I willing to share all the things that happen to you no matter it's happy or sad. If not mistaken, this was the 3rd times you called me while cring. Actually, I'm a good listener but not really good in console people. Well, I already tried my very best to analyze all the problem with you. Should I scold the girl here? A crazy and childish girl that do not think about the situation... A stupid and uncertainty bf... They both really bad. Why two of you 'bully' my friend? Mr.Q, I wonder did you know that all this thing that you did will make her sad? You want her not to think so much but why you created so many stories to force her to think? Think is a common thing that all the human will do. Same to you. Isn't? Actually, what she want is you should explain to her what's going on and please know where's the limit between you and the Ms.C. She sad because she care you. A gf that care you will concern all the things happen to you even though that's just a small matter. When she want to have a meet with her own friend, I knew you'll tried to follow no matter where she go. But, did you think before you should give her some freedom. Both of you been together not more than a year yet already create so many problems. I wonder how long can this relationship last if still the same things happen. Sigh... RELATIONSHIP this word. To me, it did brings us happiness sometimes but at the same time, it's a problem maker. It's good if you can find someone that suit you to stay with you for whole life. However, if couldn't find it. We can still stay alive in this world with our own job, family, friends, etc... At last, I hope everythings will be ok after a call from him. Hopefully he already call you to have a talk. GAMBATE^^ I know you can do it in this simple problem solving process.

Hmm... May happiness be with all of us. Happy always:))))

Final exam coming sOOn@@

Still got 2days left for me to prepare for my final exam which start on this coming monday. Am I get ready for my exam? No... This time I found that I more lazy than last sem. I couldn't concentrate in my study. I know that I should try my very best in preparing my exam in this limited 2days. Hopefully I can do it, preparing well before walk into the exam hall.

Actually I wonder isn't got reason that make me like that? Still remember last sem I cant concentrate for the 1st 3days during the study weeks due to some stupid reasons. After that, I did it great after a short conversation with you. I found that I can concentrate after that. It's awesome!!! Sometimes, I was angry with the way you talk. It's rude... I cant get use to those language you use to me. But I should thanks you for perli and critic me. This is because I try my very best to concentrate in my study to proved to you that I can do it in that way where you said I cant! But I know I already lose to you. Sigh... I know I'm intrapersonal type but not interpersonal. I know I cant do well when whole group was noisy and disturbing. Why I didn't realize until you told me?! I should understand myself more than you did. You make me confused with my own attitude. I hate such feeling like this. Really...

Tomorrow, I will try to start again my revision. I know this time, I don't have those reasons to make me concentrate in my study because all I hope was spoiled due to the decision you maked. But I realize I feel much more better than last time. Haha... I grew up and up by facing all these problem. Keep it there... I don't want to walk further from here!!!

Finally, I would like to give my 99% hardwork in this finals and may GOD bless me for the rest of 1%... I'm not greedy, so pls help me ya^^
GAMBATE!!! ALL THE BEST TO ME AND MY COURSEMATES>< 'jia you'

什么是爱情~~文章分享

This is an e-mail that I received today. I found it really interesting and meaningful. Let's share here with all of you. May happiness always be with us^^


❤❤❤也許愛情是一部憂傷の童話❤❤❤

♂放棄一個很愛你の人 並不痛苦♀
♂放棄一個你很愛の人 那才痛苦♀
♂愛上一個不愛你の人 那是更痛苦♀

♀逃避 不一定躲得過♂
♂面對 不一定最難過♀
♀孤單 不一定不快樂♂
♂得到 不一定能長久♀
♀失去 不一定不再擁有♂

★愛是一種是思念★ღ
無論何時何地 當看不到她/她の時候會想念她/他ღ

★愛也會是一種擔心★ღ
當他/她出事の時候 你會比誰都著急ღ

★愛是一種包容★ღ
你會包容她/他所有の缺點 在你眼裡他/她永遠是最完美のღ

★愛更是一種回憶★ღ
當你想起她/她做出可愛 浪漫の事時 會不知覺の傻笑ღ

★覺得好甜蜜 好甜蜜★ღ
你體會到了嗎 如果沒有就放棄 重新開始吧 祝福你ღ

Combination 2

Haha... Ice age 3-dawn of the dinasour really interesting to watch!!! I really like Diego... It's look cute^^ Watch it yesterday at gurney which is the day before my presentation. Watch it to release my tension?! Haha, maybe. Enjoy my thursday at gurney actually. Having my dinner at breeks, my lunch was popcorn where I having it at cinema. LOL...

Well, now today. Should I talk about presentation?! Everything going good. Isn't true? I think we got it 70%. Quite low the marks that I gave to my group presentation. Well, not really want to talk about that. I'm here would like to say congrats to my group member all which tried your hardwork with me in completed the advertisement. We solved all the problem that we faced together. I like this things which called team work. I can see it. Really... This was my last presentation for this short sem and after this, I will have my final exam in the 13 and 16 of july. Good luck and gambate everyone!!!

Today, I realize something. I not very understand myself in someways. I wonder why I will have those feeling and did all stupid things?! Argh!!! I should change all this stupid attitude from today onwards. Oh ya, I want to thx one ppl here who told me smtg(it's negative but hope dat I can change it). It's actually not internal but external. I promised I will try my best not to do it agian. Thx for giving me comment. Appreciated it^^

Here, let's share with u all few pictures that I captured at breeks^^

Haha^^ yummy yummy~~

Looking for another happy day><

Combination of few days~~

I skipped few days didn't update my blog cos really busy with my assignment stuff. Well, doing great this few days. Now revive back to friday, staring on my laptop for whole night until 12 smtg... My hp rang, this was my dearest Ms.Lv. Just back to pg and she miss me till 'snap' me out supper with her. Well, due to I never take my dinner so just join her for supper. Sorry to her cos I really look like a sleepy bear. Haha!!!

Saturday, transformers day!!! I went to gurney for transformers with primary friends and one 'stranger'. LOL... He is Ms. J bf actually. Was having my lunch at sakae then rush to the cinema for movie. The movie was awesome!!! I like bumblebee... Even though primes is the main character in transform but I still like bee. It's look cute when cry^^ Well, feel surprised when I received a call from a friend tell me about somethings look special to him but not me. LOL... Then, received another call at 1 smtg from another friend. Now I wonder why people's like to find me at midnight?! Haha, cos they know that I'm a late night owl? Hmm, I should change my bed time after this sem I think. Haha...

Monday, studing for whole day again. But compare to last few weeks, I didn't feel tied today. I don't know why actually. Hmm... Heard something nice from one of my friend today. Haha, really feel happy when I heard it. It's great to listen some words that can cheer me up. Happy^^

Now, I have to continue with my courseworks again. I have to complete it tomorrow and then prepare for the presentation. Gambate to myself and other classmate^^ Fighting and look forward for ice age~~ Hope that I able to find someone to watch with me><

Changes@@

Nowadays I notice that many of my friends do make some changes on their attitude, personality, thinking and so on. Does all this changes are good or opposite? I do admit that myself do have some changes too but not the same like some of them. What I mean here is... For example, last time they will talk to you so many things but now, none. Yea, I know he/she need not to tell me everything or share with me all this things. But I hate being ignore by people. I will definately reply all the msg/comment so I hope others will do this to me too. Unfortunately, some people disappointed me. I hate this feeling. Hmm... actually, I no need to care all this things but I dont know why I just care to some particular people's only. I care them, So I hope more from them? But, why I didn't realize from the day I start to know them? I had been know them couples of years, now only got this feeling. Really WTH?!!! I hope can meet them as well cos I really feel happy when meet them up. Even just few seconds or only get to see them from far. Am I stupid? Sometime I will answer 'yes I am'. Sigh... Anyway, those special people's wont know it cos they didn't visit my blog. So here is the best place for me to express my emotion but sadly, I cant shout here. LOL...
Now I should learn to ignore, learn not to care all this things. Learn everything that can protect me from being hurt, learn not to care them anymore. Really hate this feeling. I hate it and even hate 'you'!!!!!! I miss all the memories even though all are past tense. Can all this things happen again in future?! Sigh... speechless......

lazy bear= m3!!!

Argh!!! I skipped one day again due to my lazyness. But nothing special for yesterday so just forget about it. Today, went out with 2 of my friends after the heavy rain in the afternoon. We went to gurney--->>siam express for lunch. 3 of us was oder the same dish which is Tom Yam mee. LOL... the soup there taste nice until 3 of us finished it all.

Today slightly different a little bit cos went out with my mom and her friend after she back work. We went to COBRA to listen the music there 'all r chinese old disc song' and enjoy the drink there. Everything just nice except the cats there really make me uncomfortable cos 'they' keep on touching my foot. I like dogs but not cats@@

Oh ya, my dinner... I bought apple's donuts again. Love it^^

Here it is--->>

ying's favourite><

It's time for me to my 'lovely' bed... NIGHTZzzz

Finally><

Finally, i got time to update my blog. 1st of all, I would like to greet one of my friend 'Happy Birthday'!!! Haha, today's date-->22 june 2009 really 'special'. Cos today was my moral assignment due date, my friend b'day, moral quiz gav on today as well and this was the 1st monday my afternoon class cancel! Happy^^

Anyway, I still got one more assignment to go. That was critical thinking. Hmm, can say I already complete more than 50%. Everything will be ok i think. But, I do need time to discuss with my group regarding the presentation. Oh ya, forum... I have to complete it within this week too.

Nothing special for my lunch and dinner this few day except saturday went gurney bought my friend b'day present and had my lunch at A&W + bought apple's doughnut for my dinner. Really nice the doughnut taste. Well, today after my moral quiz. We went to Ramen's restaurant which opposite my college for our lunch. Hmm, not bad the taste actually but the size per serving was too big for us... Errr, that was my dinner as well cos i doesn't feel hungry until now. RM8 per serving really worth for me. LOL...

Today's I special cook for my lovely doggy a nice dinner--->> ying's style fried rice!!! Taste nice actually(I got try it:P)...

ying's style fried rice^^

Hehe... that's all for today. C u!!!

tiRed~.~

Again, I skipped one day to update my blog. Woke up as early as 7am to prepare for badminton at 8am. Here, I would like to say thank you to one person who morning call me to wake up. But it was too early for me... Hehe... I went to KFC for my lunch with 2 of my friends after badminton. Really enjoy the chicken there. It's nice!!! After that, I went home to continue with my assignments stuff. Sigh... headache with that!

Today, stay at college study for whole day. From 9am until 6pm. But luckily, d QM class was the last class for this sem and our lecturer released us at 5pm. So, i able to rush back to meet my mom at sunshine. Hehe, thx for my 'aya' aunty bought me the delicious yogurt ais cream, garlic bread and also the pizza. Haha, taste really nice><

Now, still busy staring at my laptop and also tv as well... Hopefully I can settle my 2nd assignment which due on monday at sunday afternoon. Gambate to me and others group member who are editor in this assignment^^

May happiness and luck always be with me, my family and also my friends~~

@.@

Sigh... my ko-k assignment change plan agian due to the 2 indians girls that suppose to be in my group switched to another group. Tonight when i already settled our Q1, i received the msg from my ibc president who r also my group member for this assignment told me this bad news. So i msg sean and ask her wait me back from outside to discuss in msn. Well, the stupid line today bully me as well. I cant get into msn to complete my discussion and also cant google or facebook to find the info n runs my discussion. I realize all the website that i need cant get in but others can get in easily. Sigh... pity me...

Actually i planned not to blogging tonight but due to the technical problem, I found that i can only get into yahoo and blogs. So i change my plan to sent sean all the info that i search while the line runs well by using yahoo mail. I still cant get into my fb, so i just spent my free time to update my blog. Coz it was the only web that i able to get in besides yahoo.

I hope that everythings can runs smooth according to my plan and I want to get in to fb now... T__T
It's time for me to have some fun before off9 cos I need to wake up earlier tomorrow to go for badminton with my college buddies... So, may GOD bless me in whatever things and nights><

Busy life~~~

Monday was a supper busy day for me. Studying for whole day. Well, i woke up late in the morning. But fortunately i able to reached sch at 11am sharp. Actually i plan to update my blog at night which is about 11pm. Some incidents caused me don't have time to do it. This is because once i on my msn. So many ppls come and chatting with me... About the assignment, jokes about jones and so on. Haha, really excited when gossip and joking with my classmate all.

Hmm... that night about 9pm. I received msg from one of my friend. He having some problem with his gf again. This is not the 1st time i heard the complaintment about his relationship. I don't know all this problem caused is because of his attitude or his gf's... Last time that one, oops... Forget about it. I know he didn't love her but accept her due to some special reason. But this one, long distance relationship does create a lots of problem i think. Actually i warn him earlier when he haven't accept this relationship. But due to he don't want to feel regret about it, he accepted it about 3 month ago. He told me that his girl friend complainted about why he not care her anymore. But i don't know what is going on about their relationship. I cant help them and don't know the solution to solve the problem. Anyway, hope that he can solved his problem without alcohol and all this things wont affect his study. Gambate lo^^

Okay, now back to today. I went to school for discussion at 12pm. Having lunch with my classmates near my school there as usual. I think our skills for discussion had been improved cos we having 2 discussion at the same time. Haha... Luckily we did discuss out some solution for our assignments. Hope that the process can be smooth and good.

Today i did something crazy again. I was thinking about durians yesterday and today. So i planned to go buy durians after my discussion and I did it... XD.. I went to market with 2 of my friend and bought 6 durians there. One of my friend bought 4 and i bought 2. This was our 1st time go out and search for durians by ourself. Quite funny there when the uncle told us 6 durians for RM40. But both of us don't know how is the price of durians. At last, we did bought it. I think should be fair enough for the pricing. haha, really delicious the durians that bought. I loved it^^
That all for today... gd night n sweet dreams-.-

想念~~

今天突然想起你了。。。
怎么办？没办法把那遗憾给忘掉。
抱歉，我好像没有尽到100%的责任。你在另一个世界还好吗？父亲节的到来让我更想念你了。。。虽然两年过去了，我仍然放不下你的离去。我真的很怀念有你的生活，你的陪伴，你的关心。谢谢你让我享受了十九年的父爱。那时的我真的很幸福。
再一次的抱歉。。。一直以来都很少关心你。其实不是没有，只是我不会表现出对你的关心。还真的没用啊！！
爸爸，好久没有叫了。我真的好希望下一世还可以当你的女儿，好让我好好的还债。。。
爱你哦，永远永远~~

yesterday + today

Haha... I'm back after skipped for one day. Let's start with my group discussion yesterday at McD. Hmm, can say that the process was running smooth as what I had expected. But I still worried about the days given not enough for us to complete the assignment. This is because i have 3 assignment to complete in one week time. My moral assignment had been started. However, my critical thinking and quality management not yet start even 1%. Sigh... really worried about it.
Oh ya, I wish to complaint one thing about greenlane Mcd. I was accompany my friend went there yesterday night with my laptop. But, the wireless showed me connected to the Mcd wireless but i cant on9 there(same with others laptop users as well). Really wth...
Now, continue with today... I was busy staring at pc for morning and afternoon. Was went to gurney for my lunch with a "patient"---Ms.Lv. Pity her coz she couldn't enjoy her food at her favourite restaurant--Sakae... After that, we went for movie at 4.50. Well, not a boring movie but it's not so interesting for me. If you ask me what's going on, i'll tell you "a girl vampire which has human being killing all the vampire from the start till the end". That's all about the whole movie^^
I'm here hope that the 'patient' can get well soon from the flu. Coz i dun wan her go for quarantine due to the H1N1 virus... Hehe, just kidding la. she have to go back kampar study. So how to drive back to kampar with the sleepy eyes?! haha, get well soon ya!.. Dun spread your virus to me but u may spread to others><
Okay, stop here... C u guys in the next post~~

exhausted~~~

Today's keyword is tied!!! Woke up at 6.45am to prepare for going school. I feel so sleepy during all the lesson and even sleepy while doing quizzes... I was so happy when the clock showed that it's already 6pm!! It's time for me to go back to my lovely home^^

Today's dinner--->> went to 'faces' for my dinner with Ms. Lv. Well, i not really have mood to enjoy my dinner due to my serious stomach cramp. Even now still not comfortable with it. This is because I cant get to walk straight because of the pain and have to walk like an old ladies. So pity~~

I think I will be busy with all the assignment things after the group discussion tomorrow. Hope that I can get my assignment done with their efficiently. Today's bad news was i had received another assignment that need to hand in next week. Sigh... Such a busy short semester.

That all for todays, share with you all the process of discussion tomorrow if I can make the discussion successful... Sweet dreams~.~

busy day~~

Woke up early in the morning to go for badminton with uni friends... Exercise for 3 hrs and join them for lunch. Well, today I had a chance to chat with one of my friend about some 'special' topics. Actually i seldom chat with her in all this things. But i feel surprised when my point of view in some cases accepted by her. Thx her for spending her time in listening my 'short story' and 'gossip'.
Dinner time--->> having dinner with Ms.Lv at breeks. Wow, enjoyed the food served there, yummy~~ After this, we planned to go bed cafe for coffee and i need her help in doing some searching there. I feel weird when i couldn't search the things that i want. I think I need to do some checking before i search again. I like to handle those difficult stuff actually... Wonder when can I search it. However, now have to forget this thing and try think about the class and the quiz tomorrow.
Good luck to me in the searching and the quiz^^

nites~~

~~10 june 2009~~

Woke up at 10.30am today, prepare to hang-out with friend. Well, we went to gurney for movie n lunch. We had our lunch at kim gary restaurant n then watch '17 again'. Quite enjoy the movie actually... Wonder if I do have a chance to step back to the age of 17. Can I change my life? Reset all the things from the age 17. It will be great if i can do it too... However, it's juz a dream that will never come true~~
Everythings was nice except just now. I suddenly had a 'serious' stomachache. I think must be the drink that I order while lunch---mango coconut milky ??(forgot the whole name of the drink, sorry ya) but the drink really taste nice^^
Hope that my stomach can calm down after this><

Night n sweet dreams to all of u-.-

simple intro + diary

Welcome~~~~~~The motive i create this blog's is to share somethings that happen in my life. I hope here can be a place for me to release my tension when I pressure and even let my friends know how my life going on. Oh ya, I would like to explain a little bit about my blog's url... The reason I choose to name as bittersweetbearz......bittersweet here is actually stand for the things I share in my blogs here combine with the feeling of bitter n sweet while d word bearz is because of------->>I like teddy bear...^^

Hmm... now start to said somethings that happened today. Well, today was quite a simple day for me. Woke up at 8.30 to pass my car key to d uncle to sent for 'body check up'. Not a big problem for my car actually, just have to spend 'some' money on tyres and the wires(not really know what going on due to I'm not professional on car)XD

Agian, whole days stared in front of the laptop checking my mail, sch web and facebook of cos><
Sigh... reading the assignment ques of critical thinking that received few days ago. OMG!!! It really 'critical'... wonder how do I start this assignment with my group members@@ Hope that I can finish it in the two weeks time.

Errr... I think that the things happened today. Really simple... Look forward to the hang-out tomorrow with one of my secondary best friend. Good luck to all of u and nightz...~.~